I’m not sure what came over me this morning, but I had this surge of energy and felt really brave. I’ve been thinking about creating video for quite some time, but have simply been too afraid to do anything at all. It took me a while to get comfortable with blogging and sharing through this medium. The realm of video is like going a step further and I had always blocked myself with excuses about how funky I would look and without professional equipment, blah blah… but this morning… I felt like maybe I could do it! So I totally let myself flow with that spark of energy and inspiration and just went ahead and did it! Here’s my very first video…
I have to admit that part way through, many doubts and fears popped up and I was tempted to delete all and just go hide away. But something inside drove me forward and I honestly tried to get it done as fast as I could, so I wouldn’t lose my courage! In editing, I thought – whoa, I seriously have disproportionate eyes, funky eyebrows and weird facial expressions while talking – it’s seriously weird talking into your computer! I kept wondering if I’ve always been this odd and why I keep clamming up just because the video camera is on. I could have re-recorded a million times, but I was racing time…afraid my courage would run out! The whole point of it all is to get my work out there in front of people. Those who don’t like me or my work, well, they aren’t my audience anyway…so whatevers! But sticking my neck out means I will be able to reach those who will be my supporters and the thought is so encouraging and worth sticking your neck out. I’ve turning to my marketing resources for help and it’s really pushed me to take action. I love this quote…
Behold the turtle.
He makes progress
only when he sticks his neck out.
– James Bryant Conant
So I’m still feeling a bit anxious about it all, but I’ve gotten through it and all is well. Some may cringe at the sight of me, but it is authentically me and…I like being me! So there’s nothing to hide. I realized that sometimes you have to take advantage and ride that wave of courage. Do it immediately, so you don’t second guess yourself or convince yourself otherwise with excuses. Another one of my “revelations” that everyone already knows, huh? 😛 I’m super excited and pumped…so I think this is a good-scary type of thing to do. Just wanted to document this and share with y’all as I hop along my creative journey. Until next time… ciao ciao!